I called my doc on Wednesday and was wondering if she would write me a script for Clomid, since we had recently talked about it at a visit. I didn't want to go in if I didn't have to. I've had the stuff before, there would be no need for an exam, no need to blow $85 on a visit (since my *awesome* health insurance has a $6,000 deductible- but that's another story!) so I really didn't feel the need to go in if I didn't have to. So doc's nurse called me back and said that we'll start with one round but we're doubling the dose. Then I have to go back on March 8th for a blood draw to check up on my progesterone to make sure things are happening like they should.
I do like being on Clomid because there are no immediately noticeable side-effects and most of all it gives me hope. True the chances of multiples are higher, but I think taking the risk is worth it.
I'm sure I've said this before, but I feel like a failure. I even joined WW again and have been eating like a rabbit and working out but I've only gained weight. That combined with new stress at work now, I'm just feeling really depressed and just an all around epic failure.
So, for now we'll stick with the Clomid and see what this round brings us. Wish me luck.
I will leave you with a list of honest-to-goodness song titles (some of which are on country radio):
- Heaven’s Just A Sin Away
- If You Can’t Live Without Me, Why Aren’t You Dead Yet?
- Mama Get The Hammer (There’s A Fly On Papa’s Head)
- Liked You Better Before I Knew You So Well
- I Don’t Know Whether To Kill Myself Or Go Bowling
- It’s Hard to Kiss the Lips at Night that Chew Your Ass Out All Day Long
- I Just Couldn’t Leave Her Behind Alone
- I’m So Miserable Without You, It’s Like Having You Here
- I Just Fell In Something and I Sure Hope It’s Love
- If My Nose Were Full of Nickels, I’d Blow It All On You