Welcome, New Day

Well, today is a new day, and this is new blog. New way to start over.

My husband of almost 3 years, here on known as DH (dear husband) and I have been try to conceive since November 1st of 2008. You'll find in this blog a lot of emotional ranting and hopefully somewhat humorous contemplations as I try to chronicle our struggle with unexplained infertility.

Our journey started June 16th of 2007 when we were married. There was never any doubt that this was the man with whom I wanted to spend the rest of my life and make beautiful babies. Even a few months after we were married I was ready to start but one has to tell oneself to calm down and wait a little bit. We were both pretty fresh from college and didn't know where life was going to take us.

Somewhere in that time I had been to see my gyno and was diagnosed with PCOS (Poly-Cystic Ovarian Syndrome) which was a devastating blow because I knew it would impact my beautiful baby making. So, after much coaxing, DH and I started the enthusiastic process of trying to conceive.

During the first couple of months we didn't expect much. Then it got to be months 5 and 6 and we (or I) started getting concerned. After month 8 or 9 I decided to seek help of a new gyno. She told me (and keeps telling me) I'm young and I've got time, but I don't feel like I have time. My mom had a heart attack at age 50 and I'm afraid my parents will never see their grandchildren. Am I totally irrational with my thinking with that?

So we started the barrage of testing. I don't remember the exact order but it started with blood work for hormones, transvaginal ultrasounds, the Hysterosalpingogram(HSG) and last but not least sperm analysis. The doctor did say the numbers for his morphology (shape of his little guys) was borderline but my tests were all normal and no sign of PCOS. The doctor put me on Clomid for 2 months which seemed to be helping control things but no beautiful baby. Well that's frustrating.

So now we're on to the fertility specialist on March 16th. We've been asked to take his tests over again which will start to add up since none of this from here on out will be covered by insurance. I guess that's the price you pay sometimes.

This baby better love us. Alot.